I had no idea I could feel so much support from something on line from people I've never met before.  Thank you.  Today, I feel better.  Today I feel worse because there you all are and I wish you weren't.  I'm sorry you are here for me and thankful you are too.  Satan drops a pebble one time in to a pond and watches with triumph at how it ripples out through time and generations ever growing, ever widening it's evil ways.  This site I hope is putting a stop to some of those ripples.  May God bless you, comfort you, and keep you safe.  I feel Him trying to help me, but the evil one whispers daily in my ear, I know I can't commit suicide, but the urge to hurt myself has surprisingly surfaced in my life.  I fight that and so far I've won that battle.  Life is crazy, but right now, I'm okay.