Do you sometimes wonder if you are only here to end your life. What I mean is, some people will say "I was made to do this with my life" or "I was born to do this". What if I was meant to kill myself? I feel like I want to do it all the time. More and more. But something stops me at the moment. Am I afraid? Am I worried for the family I would leave behind? Yes. Im sure many people here feel this way too.
I never tell anyone these feelings anymore. I did to start with, doctors, family and close friends. But I have lived with these feelings for such a long time now I feel like a broken record and a burden to those around me.
Im hiding away more and more.
PB
I never tell anyone these feelings anymore. I did to start with, doctors, family and close friends. But I have lived with these feelings for such a long time now I feel like a broken record and a burden to those around me.
Im hiding away more and more.
PB
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I have known the feeling, and it\'s just the same ol\' thing over and over for me I have always had problems with being depressed. I think the only reason I have over came my feelings like that was due to my children. I started my own family and happiness. It helped for a while, but now kid seem to cause more depression. With all the crying and screaming I feel as if I am on my last straw. No one cares to help, so I just bottle it up and put on a show.
I know I would never kill myself, but I hope one day to truly be happy. I am tired of being an actress. Making everyone think I am just fine.