Feed up. Not sleeping at night isnt helping. Im in a really low place right now. Had to cancel an appointment today with my CBT nurse, I was too tired to go. A little annoyed with myself for not going but I physically couldnt get up for the appointment. Even more frustrating was that when I called I was in the company of my parents, they are so supportive and understanding but when my nurse asked me how I was feeling, I couldnt tell her the truth in front of them. I had already explained to her that I was with my parents, so I hoped she would take the hint. She didnt. She asked me to explain why I feel Im in a lower mood right now. So I said its because Im not eating because my parents know this. It is true, thats probably some of the reason. But the main reason is that Im cutting again and thinking more about suicide. My parents have known me to do this before but I just didnt want to say it in front of them now and the nurse was so persistant.
Replies
I can only imagine how shit you are feeling right now, feeling down is bad enough but the lack of sleep and food you must be feeling so drained emotionally and physically :( Please if you are considering suicide think about all the people that would miss you if you did go through with it. I know its hard because you most likely want someone else to understand what it feels to be like in your shoes, and how frustrating it is when people tell you \'dont kill yourself\' without even trying to understand what its like in your situation. But please try keep your chin up and stay strong
x x x x x x x