DONE

Stupid gambling... Stupid casinos... Stupid people... Stupid me...  IM DONE. im tired of people complaining. im tired of myself, im tired of wanting to gamble, im tired of hoping people win so i can get a tip, even though i know they have the same problem i do. im tired of it, day in, day out. i was tired a long time ago. but i need to do somthing about it.   THIS YEAR... and you all hold me to this...  I WILL ENROLL in college, and get as far as fast as i can... even if i have to drive out of town and sacrifice time with my child.  I will get my credit back....  I will do more things i truly enjoy... and spend more time with friends... the good friends i have that have always been there.  This is not a new years resolution... between the back pay the dooshbag dad owes me since i get his return, and my own tax return... i will have the money to get a jump start and start over, the right way.  IM TIRED of not enjoying things, im tired of being out of touch with spiritual.  things are better than they were, but im gonna be 30 soon. yeah, i know, still young, but exactly my point, i dont want to wait till 50 to buy a house, and have a GOOD stable job with benefits.  SO EVERYONE< whenever you get the chance, please, just be as annoying as you can and ask me if i have done anything towards my goals... i know i havent been on here much, but i need to now... i cant do this anymore. im tired of myself as i am. i should have so much to look forward to.