WELL, HAPPY NEW YEAR
i had to work again. it was ok, better than christmas, im feeling better today, i made rent, and enough so that i dont lose my horses right now!!! if i can just stay out of casinos, and nickel and dime EVERYTHING then i might be in the clear in a couple of weeks as far as my payday loans are concerned. then i can start over, get my bankruptcy done, and start building credit and start my business finally. the only reason i havent started selling my artwork and doing portraits is because of my gambling. my loans are due on the 10th, my hourly paycheck should be 4-500, so i need to make 700 in tips, for my loans by the tenth then another 560 for my horses, and somehow tomarrow i have to bring home 200 for my car payment, ugh, this is sooo hard. im juggling here. but i havent gambled since last thursday when i screwed myself. its wierd that it seems a long time.
i have had over 700 in cash on me for 2 days and havent gone to gamble, so im proud of myself. its looking right now like i can make it. i hope, time will tell right??
well i hope. im just glad im feeling better today.
i had to work again. it was ok, better than christmas, im feeling better today, i made rent, and enough so that i dont lose my horses right now!!! if i can just stay out of casinos, and nickel and dime EVERYTHING then i might be in the clear in a couple of weeks as far as my payday loans are concerned. then i can start over, get my bankruptcy done, and start building credit and start my business finally. the only reason i havent started selling my artwork and doing portraits is because of my gambling. my loans are due on the 10th, my hourly paycheck should be 4-500, so i need to make 700 in tips, for my loans by the tenth then another 560 for my horses, and somehow tomarrow i have to bring home 200 for my car payment, ugh, this is sooo hard. im juggling here. but i havent gambled since last thursday when i screwed myself. its wierd that it seems a long time.
i have had over 700 in cash on me for 2 days and havent gone to gamble, so im proud of myself. its looking right now like i can make it. i hope, time will tell right??
well i hope. im just glad im feeling better today.
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your doin good..Stay strong
It is a long time that you have lasted. I know exactly how you feel. It sucks trying to juggle all the bills. Feels like the never ending story. You will get there, you seem to be more focussed now. Hugs, Kiran.
Put the cash somewehre , pay or bill or something so you are not tempted to gamble. It\'s a little tempting to have it on you and really you don\'t want to put yourself into another hole...just thoughts. hugs Suzi
You can do it!