hello,
im feeling well today, it sucks working on christmas though, especially in a casino.
im a little worried. my weekend is coming up, and well, im feeling like i want to gamble. i dont want to, but i get sooo bored with my 3 days off, and i dont think i'll be working my second job this week. and i cant think of things i can do all day to keep me out of the damn casino. my bf is leaving and i wont be able to talk to him for a week, so that inspiration to do good might go out the door. i dont know if i'll make it, im sure going to try. sleeping pills maybe??
sleep it off?? well we'll see. wish me luck.
and i totally bombed the diet thing lol.
i ate LOTS of fudge, it was so good, i couldnt help myself!
well happy xmas
im feeling well today, it sucks working on christmas though, especially in a casino.
im a little worried. my weekend is coming up, and well, im feeling like i want to gamble. i dont want to, but i get sooo bored with my 3 days off, and i dont think i'll be working my second job this week. and i cant think of things i can do all day to keep me out of the damn casino. my bf is leaving and i wont be able to talk to him for a week, so that inspiration to do good might go out the door. i dont know if i'll make it, im sure going to try. sleeping pills maybe??
sleep it off?? well we'll see. wish me luck.
and i totally bombed the diet thing lol.
i ate LOTS of fudge, it was so good, i couldnt help myself!
well happy xmas
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Hi there. Sorry you have to work today - especially since its in a Casino. One thing that I did when I had to be in a casino after I quit gambling, was to look at people\'s faces. Most people in casinos are not smiling...there\'s a sadness in the air.
As far as the fudge goes, I would eat it if it was in front of me - too good to resist. :)
Do you have some good music to listen to or a good book? Someone you can visit?
I hope you resist the urge to gamble today.
Merry Christmas!
Your friend,
Deb
it is very strange, before I read the comments from Bluesydeb I was going to tell you the very same thing. I am always thinking how unhappy the people look in the casino. When I have been there for hours and the same people are still there you can bet they have lost their last dime just as I probably have. I now have that hard, angry look on my face a lot. I am so angry at myself for being this weak. I was always such a strong, responsible woman and I have sunk so low. I keep picturing myself crawling out of a deep pit but I keep falling back in. I long for the day my face is only filled with smiles and my head and chest no longer hurt because of this craziness. Hang in there. I will be thinking of you this weekend - maybe sleeping thru the weekend isn\'t such a bad idea - I may have to try it. lol