Feeling down

What in the world have I done to deserve all of this pain?  What did I do?  I am in so much emotional pain right now and I can't escape it.  I just want to crawl into bed and not get out... ever.  I am so lost, I want to be found.  I am so hurt, I want relief.  
I never wanted this!  I never wanted this life!  I never wanted to think all of these thoughts!  
I don't know what to do.  I'm one of those people that feels alone in a room full of people.  
Please, help me to fix myself.  I'm so lost and need to get found.  I need to feel happy again.  Help me...