38 Minutes and 2 deputies

So there I was after spending the last 10 days with my son waiting on my STBX to get back in from her travels. I picked the boy up and took him to lunch then we went down to a old WWII Fort and walked around. It was a good afternoon and we had a lot of fun. I started getting a little down as we headed home and a few tears got past my defenses. I know the son was getting a little stressed out because I was upset. He's been really good since the first day when he was so upset. His mother talked to him a grand total of 38 minutes since the 21st of this month. She wouldn't talk to him much more that a 1:40 at a time. I think the longest time was 2:39, so good of her to take that much time out of her day to talked to her son. Tonight I was waiting for her to get home and just get in my truck to leave. She texted me that she was "Here" so as soon as I saw her car I headed for my truck. She drove up and I was heading out before she even parked her car. I headed out the main road and took turn at the intersection and there were two Sheriff deputies sitting in the road with their lights off. Might just be a coincidence but I really don't think so. I think that crazy &^%&* called them to have them waiting just in case I tried anything. Funny I can be trusted to be with our son for TEN days but then I'm going to get crazy when she gets back and do something. I know that I should forgive and just get past this for my son's sake but so far I haven't found the grace or class to bring myself to that point. I'll just have to keep saying my prayers and hope God can spare some of that healing grace to calm my troubled soul.

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llmt
llmt

I\'m going to throw back at what you\'ve been telling me. You are grace under fire and do not forget that. I can only send a hug from afar but do know that I am thinking of you, too. The boy does not deserve to see any of this or have done to him what she is doing...not necessary. Please hang in there..you have been my rock, and although I am not doing well right now, let me be yours. Take care, S, and know that someone up north is rooting for you.
deleted_user
deleted_user

I think you have shown REMARKABLE strength and grace in all these. You have shown class. Too bad your wife is too stupid not to see it. I am rooting for you. You are being the best you can be for Andrew and I hope you draw some comfort from that. Hugs to you, Scott.
deleted_user
deleted_user

You don\'t have to HOPE God will send you that grace, He is already sending it. The fact that you are aware of what is going on with you is pretty huge. I have been through this, and you will get through this too. You have a self that deserves to be loved. And you are the only one who can do that the way it must be done. Once you really get to know the man in the mirror, you will find that loving him is the key that opens the door of your heart to receive the love that you are swimming in already. Men traditionally have not spoken this way, but I am not a \"traditional man\". I am a REAL man. I can feel and name my feelings, live with them, and let go of destructive, outer directed negative feelings.
As your avitar identity implies, you are fighting a good fight. Soon you will realize that it is not about fighting at all, but about surrendering the fight to One who fights for you, and has NEVER lost a soul or a battle. **Two huggz, One for you, and one for your son**
goodfight
goodfight

Thanks you guys, I sometimes let the little things get me down. Making sure that I minimize the impact on my son and that he knows I love him wherever and forever is the most important.