Day2:
So, day 2...
I must confess, this feels easy. For Now. I'm broke, so even if I have unbearable urges to gamble, I can't. I have exhausted ALL my resources. Down to the very last. The challenge will truly begin when I get my next paycheck. My plan for that day is to pay ALL MY BILLS. I am delinquent on a few, so that in and of itself will lessen the anxiety I feel right now. I have a few days to plan, so that needs to be finished. I've made all the excuses to family and friends about not participating in Christmas this year. All lies, every single one. Not particularly proud of that. In fact, pretty ashamed of myself. I wont sit here and rant on about casinos. And I am not going to put myself into a bigger funk about how stupid I feel. That would not be helpful at all. So for today, day 2 of not gambling, I am going to throw myself into action. I am going to put in my headphones and clean and craft and call friends. All the while being positive about my new future WITHOUT PUSHING THAT DANG BUTTON....
Wishing all of you out there a day full of progress and abstinence...
<3
I must confess, this feels easy. For Now. I'm broke, so even if I have unbearable urges to gamble, I can't. I have exhausted ALL my resources. Down to the very last. The challenge will truly begin when I get my next paycheck. My plan for that day is to pay ALL MY BILLS. I am delinquent on a few, so that in and of itself will lessen the anxiety I feel right now. I have a few days to plan, so that needs to be finished. I've made all the excuses to family and friends about not participating in Christmas this year. All lies, every single one. Not particularly proud of that. In fact, pretty ashamed of myself. I wont sit here and rant on about casinos. And I am not going to put myself into a bigger funk about how stupid I feel. That would not be helpful at all. So for today, day 2 of not gambling, I am going to throw myself into action. I am going to put in my headphones and clean and craft and call friends. All the while being positive about my new future WITHOUT PUSHING THAT DANG BUTTON....
Wishing all of you out there a day full of progress and abstinence...
<3
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