WHOA!

  First thing this morning here “she” was I can’t believe it was a full 40 cycle! Funniest part was now that the herbs have started making me feel better DH and I had some impromptu fun last evening so I told him “he’d fixed me” which of course he took great pride in.  I’m assuming the herbs have something to do with my feeling better, it’s the only thing that’s “changed” in the last week and plus I have to think so in order to justify choking it down twice a day right!   With the good comes some not so…over the weekend we had a girl’s night which that “coo-coo” friend of mine hosted and her mother was there, mom pulled one of my other friend aside to tell her how concerned she was and they’d (mom & step-dad) tried an intervention that didn’t go well and so she’s reaching out to us. Then my brother and SIL have decided to take a break for a while so he’s heartbroken and quite possibly moving in with us. Last night my DH and I just sat on the bed talking and my heart just aches for my brother and being grateful that we are happy and healthy as far as our marriage goes even after the year we had, this could have fed later events. But a couple days like that and all of a sudden perspective is back, my mother asked me at the end of a phone call, and afterthought with what was happening with brother, how I was doing, I couldn’t say anything other then me I’m fine don’t worry about this child this week.