I’m regaining my perspective, dealing with yet another heartbreak as well as I can, actually mildly surprised at how well. I guess all that mind-body and acupuncture stuff might have worked in some ways. DH & I were talking last night and I told him that we’ll give ourselves this week to grieve and process, then come Sunday no more. Not that it would be with us, but no more talking about it or the whole thing in general. We’ll give ourselves a break until the meeting with RE on the 28th. Focus on other things, like us.   I’m making my self a promise, I’ll spend this “break” to get the balance back and rejuvenate for whatever is next. My plan: -Keep up with Acupuncture, I thinks it’s helping me dedicate time to wholly relaxing. -Lose the cycle weight with a walking/working out routine and a yoga class once a week.-Mini make over – nice mani & pedi, new hair cut. -Work on my garden, DH is going to make me a potting bench and long box for veggies. -Going to do more actual cooking, get out the cook books and try some things I’ve been wanting to. -Spring cleaning – house, clean out closet, etc-Finally get wedding photographs up on walls! -Host a girl’s night/wine tasting and a dinner party with DH’s work friends-And last but certainly not least more quality time with DH.  That should keep me busy but in a healthy and productive way. The last time I made myself promises too, I followed though with most and in turn this cycle, although it did not end the way we’d hoped it did go a lot smoother in a lot of ways, we handled it together and didn’t lose quite so much of ourselves in the process, so hopefully the promises I make this time will help us with the next step, next fight. But at the very least it will give me time to rest and recoup so that I’ll have the fight in me.   The love and support I have received here and with my friends and family has amazed me. I certainly credit my ability to feel as “good” – relative term this week- as I do today to you and them.

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I\'m so sorry honey, I know how much you want and deserve this. If you need to talk just let me know, I\'m happy to listen. All my love and prayers...
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You have a great plan going. I had to laugh about the getting the wedding pics on the wall one...I just took my negatives in to make some prints for the very same thing.....7 year later! Oh well. Seriously though, I did a ton of stuff yesterday that I have been putting off for a long time and it really put me in a good mood. I think it will help you move past your grieving process when you\'re ready. Big Hugs.
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I think you are incredibly strong. Getting back in the game is the right thing to do so you WILL be ready for the fight again. It sounds like you have wonderful friends, a great DH and strong family support which will help you carry you through. I think you deserve this and your time is coming. I wont stand for another answer :)