I talked to my upcoming date last night... I am almost embarassed to say that it got a little inappropriate, nothing to wild - but certainly not what I am shooting for.  I dont understand how this is a problem for me.  Why can't I just decide not say or do certain things and go from there? Somehow I always end up in a place where I find myself saying, whats one more.....fill in the blank... gonna do.  One minute I feel strong, the next.......I'm irritated with myself.On a more positive note, the kids had a great day back to school after the holiday and my son got a STAR!!!  That means he made it through the whole day without three strikes, which is almost impossible for him.  When I picked him up he showed me his hand (with the stamp on it) and said, Mommy I tried reallllly hard today.  And, I am gonna try even harder tomorrow."  So friggin adorable.