Well I found out that some of those jobs are already filled they just hadnt taken them off the job board because of the holiday.  I'm actually okay though cause I feel like if it is meant to be it will happen. SO I'm just waiting and seeing.I havent started walking again I am just soooo tired all the time that I have trouble making myself work out.  I am soooo out of shape.  I get out of breath soooooo easily!  It doesnt seem to be getting better.  Sometimes I'm okay and sometimes I feel depressed about it all.  I really thought by now I would be back to normal.I went to see a guy friend this weekend Im not even sure what we are but anyways spent the weekend with him and it was nice!  I probably drank a little too much but it was over the weekend not a whole bunch at one time.  When I told him last week that I was trying to get a job back home he was like come get a job in my town and live with me.  I dont know where the fuck that came from I thought we were just casual.... That has been kinda stressing me out the last few days.  I like him but he has different things in life that he does that I dont agree with. Its sooooo complicated but all my relationships seem to be that way.  I dont know why I am saying all this on here guess I just need to get it out.  So I have noooooo clue what I will be doing.  I dont know what to do.  Ah well enough for now.  I go back to the doctor on friday for a check up so we will see.