Well today is okay.  I don't know if anyone feels this way but I feel like my whole life has been changed since this happened.  Its hard for me to not fixate on the problem and worry about the future.  I am trying to figure out what I want to do with my life.  I  orignally had high goals to go for my masters and then my PHD and go for a job at a college being involved in research and being a professor.  All that has changed with the sickness.  I am having financial problems because of all the medical bills and having to change my insurance to a much more expensive one to cover my medicine.  Lovenox is soooooo high and I can't take Coumadin.  I know I don't want to take out lots of loans to finish school.  I've done sooo good not to and ts hard to get financial aid for your masters at least at my university.  I am going to start looking for a full-time job in March to start in the summer.  I had wanted to work part-time, do school fulltime to finish quick.  The difficult thing is I am a career changer so its not like I can get a job in my field right now.... So I don't know whether to go back to my old one or try to get in the new one.