Still Monday..
Just about head to toe poison whatever. It made it to my face. 
Went to the Dr. and he gave me a great big shot..of some kind of steroid. Hope it helps.
If not..I can pick up some cash being an extra in a Horror film.
Haven't been to the Dr.'s office since right after the ex left. They all crowded around and wanted to know what was happening. I asked the Dr. If he could give my ex a shot of common sense the next time he comes in.
If not..anything PAINFUL will do. 
Grossed myself out a little today with a new level of mushiness directed towards new guy. Wish I didn't feel that way. He is very romantic and sweet and inspires those feelings in me. Then I have them and think..what am I doing??? I felt one tiny touch of needy today. I NEEDED to talk to him. It really freaked me out. I am no good at needy.
I think that I am part ready for this. The part that I am not ready for is to depend on someone..even though I really think he is dependable.
Conversation with the ex today about what has been going on lately and the baptism thing. We are on the same page on that one. Talked about Connors birthday. Seperate birthday celebrations from here on out. I know that sometimes people are able to stay friends but I know that I can't. Not even going to pretend. We did not argue or fight today. That's as good as it's going to get.
I am going to put some more medicine on the poison. I think I'll use the pink stuff..and chase the kids around the house.
I'm scary!!
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LOL, Cherie, you are far from \"needy\", and its okay to feel some small need-makes them-(and not just men) but people in general to be needed and it makes them feel good to be helpful to you. Its good to have someone you can reach out to for a need and they are there for you. But \"needy\"? When I see that term, I think, like 24/7-and unfortunatly that has been me, LOL for the last few weeks. That is NOT you. You are just being normal, human, and loving and caring. I wish someone would \"need\" me once in awhile besides my kid. Hmmm, could you ooze some of that poison unto X somehow? Like if he comes over and you accidently scratch open one and then accidently rub IT on his face and say OOPS. LOL :) give it to him baby!!
Good to see that you could talk with STBX and leave it at that. You are not needy, but a woman with needs.............feeling that urge is perfectly normal..........its only if you are ready to hanle all that comes along with a relationship. Its part of growing and moving forward.
The kids won\'t run too far from you, scarry or not........hope our the poison oak clears up soon........that\'s not fun at all. The new guy should be.............:)
It\'s OK, I think we all hope to have someone someday to lean on once in awhile. It\'s normal and just a part of being a person. I think your a very strong person, but everyone needs to lean every now and again.
Hope that the poison whatever heals quickly. Good test for the new guy, see if he runs. LOL
Nothing wrong with a little needy. New guy probably really likes being a little needed. Thanks for the chasing kids imagery. I needed a laugh this morning. Try some Rhuli-Gel--it\'s better than the pink stuff.