Blah..Blah..Blah..  Just felt like saying that.

All of the sudden the end of the summer seems to be so near. In my not paying attention to details..I missed that the week that the kids will be at the beach with the ex and the gf..I have to register the kids for school which starts on Aug.20th..which is the day after I get back, at night, from my weekend in Vegas.

I have a plan...

Have the school supplies ready and the first day of school outfit layed out before I go. Call ex when I am getting close to home so he can bring the kids home. Hopefully I can have them in bed by 9pm at the latest. Up early and off to school. They won't be able to meet thier teachers ahead of time and Connor is going to be at a new school. That sucks. I will probably try to take them by there the week before. There should be people there and at least I can show them where thier classes are.

I will be operating this machine on, I expect, no sleep. I'll set the coffee maker the night before.

Also realized today that I am going to wake up on my 40th birthday alone. My kids will be at the beach with stupid and more stupid (who knows which is which??) 

SPEAKING OF STUPID....

Mom helped me with something today. We were talking and she told me that my ex has always been my ex. He acted different because he was surrounded by good people. Now he doesn't have me..doesn't have my family..doesn't have his friends..

He has the gf....and she is stupid.

Anyway..we talked about the past few months and the last couple of weeks. She is trying to prepare me for having to deal with stupid on a regular basis.  No one to keep him strait anymore.

DOING SOME MATH...

Since I have to deal with stupid, and the kids will also have to deal with stupid, she reminded me that we only have to deal with it 4 days a month. The other 26 are with me. My dad kicked in on the conversation to tell me that 26 days of BRILLIANT can easily overcome 4 days of stupid. I like my dad. So..I guess the odds are in the kids favor.

As long as I had the calculator out (figuratively speaking)..I calculated some relationship risks.

Those odds also seem to work out in my favor.  Nothing to keep me from moving ahead.

These past few days have been trying but I think I am at the point where I can accept that my ex is going to do what he is going to do.

If it is outrageous..I will try to stop him. If not I will let him make, or break, his own life with his kids.

They have a home and at least one parent who will make sure that thier best interests are looked out for. More than some kids have.

Feeling okay. This past week is the part of all of this that I have dreaded the most.

Very glad for the distraction of.. and support from.. a  really great guy.  Nice not to NEED it..but very nice to have it.