I am having a megga hard time today, it started yesterday when I was driving to work, I thought about my mother calling me a bitch, i don't understand what I did to her to be called out of my name like that.  I decided not to think about that since I neededto focus and move on, I went to therapy it seem like I left feel as bad as I came in or worse I don't know the reason why I countinue to go to this women other then I am afraid if I leave it would mean that something is really wrong with me.  I already think there is something wrong with like ai am from out of space.  All these people run away from or treat me like I am worthless like I don't count.  It keeps happening and I want it to stop.  I don't know how to make it stop