Well I graduated, thats one goal completed...but things still haven't seemed great for me.I'm stir crazy! and its summer time. already half way through june and I havent done anything exciting. 97% of weekdays mon-fri, I'm sitting around, watching tv, sitting here online, eating, and talking to myself.my brother and mom work all day! from when i wake up till i go to bed, and if they arent working they go out because they never get to. I'm stuck at home with 3 jack russels and nothing to do.I finally got a car but I cant go anywhere because I still havent got my license. I could of got them in january if it wasnt for my suspension, so then I could of got them June 2 but had to send a reinstatement fee I didn't know about. Ohio requires a driving school which is so fucking pointless and its 300 dollars to do it and im poor. I am our of high school but dont know what college i want to attend if any, I have no job, my friends are busy a lot, things with me and my boyfriend are a freakin roller coaster and I'm 19 weeks pregnant now. not much I can do, cant go to amusement parks, cant go to the tanning bed, cant drink, cant smoke, cant work out like i use to even though there are some exercises as a pregnant woman i can still do but i just get exhausted a lot quicker, I'm losing my mind sitting around all the time. I need my license so I can start seeing a councilor again. I just feel so locked down. I don't even try to look good anymore. I feel sorry for myself, and I am always comparing myself to other women and instead of doing something positive, I decide food will make me happy. so L'll eat till i feel like I'm gonna puke.suprisingly im not a fat ass but I still feel like shit about myself.
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