Well I graduated, thats one goal completed...but things still haven't seemed great for me.I'm stir crazy! and its summer time. already half way through june and I havent done anything exciting. 97% of weekdays mon-fri, I'm sitting around, watching tv, sitting here online, eating, and talking to myself.my brother and mom work all day! from when i wake up till i go to bed, and if they arent working they go out because they never get to. I'm stuck at home with 3 jack russels and nothing to do.I finally got a car but I cant go anywhere because I still havent got my license. I could of got them in january if it wasnt for my suspension, so then I could of got them June 2 but had to send a reinstatement fee I didn't know about. Ohio requires a driving school which is so fucking pointless and its 300 dollars to do it and im poor. I am our of high school but dont know what college i want to attend if any, I have no job, my friends are busy a lot, things with me and my boyfriend are a freakin roller coaster and I'm 19 weeks pregnant now. not much I can do, cant go to amusement parks, cant go to the tanning bed, cant drink, cant smoke, cant work out like i use to even though there are some exercises as a pregnant woman i can still do but i just get exhausted a lot quicker, I'm losing my mind sitting around all the time. I need my license so I can start seeing a councilor again. I just feel so locked down. I don't even try to look good anymore. I feel sorry for myself, and I am always comparing myself to other women and instead of doing something positive, I decide food will make me happy. so L'll eat till i feel like I'm gonna puke.suprisingly im not a fat ass but I still feel like shit about myself.
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sounds like your in a rut, everyone gets in those. I felt that way about 1 year ago when I was a stay at home mom, its very isolating and your self esteem sinks. The longer you trap yourself in the house the longer you are going to feel bored and pointless. Is there a way you can find a job either close to home, or on the way to your moms work or brothers work? or work second shift, evenings (after they come home so they can take you)? keeping in mind you are preggers try to find a job thats low stress- like a target (then you get a discount on items you will need for the baby) maybe even a doctors office. Perhaps once you find a job, you can ask to borrow the money from your brother or mother to take the driving school class to get your license back, or offer to do their laundry/ chores. Knowing you have a job they know that you are good to pay them back. You will need to start getting a plan together, you have a baby coming thats going to need alot of care (im sure you may have already heard this). hopefully you can find a job that has benefits. When the baby comes are you staying at home to care for it? or do you have daycare set up?