ARG!!!

I feel like I pushed myself in front of Ben. Like "HEY BEN!! LOOK AT ME!" now I feel like he doesn't want to have anything to do with me. I think he wanted to work to have me but I made it look like I'm easy. I put myself in front of him, I dumped my boyfriend for him, I layed everything on the table and now he's not interested. I need to step back and play hard to get. I never thought I would have to do that because I'm not the type of girl to want to play mind games. But I think thats what he wants me to do. I think he wants to try to win me over instead of me already being won.I need to show him I'm independent, I'm confident, not naive, not cocky, not a push over. I want to seem a mystery to him. I feel like its too late though, beings we are not dating anymore. I want him to come around, but I can't let him know how I'm feeling. I want him to be curious. I'm really frustrated and I sound like a little girl. I hope he would be willing to work for me. I tried that from the start. I made him call me, I gave him space, I was understanding, and I didn't try to throw myself upon him but still did.I hope things can be fixed. I wish I could go back and start over. if it doesnt work then at least i can say I tried.--Melanie Anne