Thursday, February 28, 2008
Ugh! I don't know what I want anymore.I'm so confused.Well first I broke up with my boyfriend, second I'm beyond fed up with my EX friends, and three I have feelings for other guys, including my ex. Seriously when I see my Ex walking down the halls I can't stop staring at him. I think about how gorgeous he is, how much I miss him how much I would love for him to ask me back.I wish me and him could start over.I don't know. If I love Christian so much why would I dump him? Why would I have my eyes on other people and my ex? Thats not love is it? Can you honestly love someone and still do those things?I'm not really sure anymore. Of anything. I just want to release all these thoughts. I want to be fully content. I've taken up my own personal yoga and meditation. Taking at least 15 minutes of your day to unwind and meditate can make a huge difference. I haven't cried over me and Christian being apart. I haven't obsessed about calling him or wanting to call him. I'm okay with that too. Whatever happens happens. If we aren't meant to be then so be it.Rawr! Grr. Meooww.ha so yeah I guess I'm doing okay just confused and not fully content with everything.I'll survive.
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I can totally understand the not being able to be over an ex. I broke up with my ex-boyfriend for a stupid reason and for three years now I\'ve been trying to convince myself I had a valid reason. I miss him so much. I am like crazy obsessed with him. I\'ve even driven past his house early morning just to see if he was home and would possibly want to talk to me.
If you truly love someone it won\'t matter if you look because your heart won\'t allow you to touch. Nothing is wrong with looking.
You can honestly love someone one and still do those things! You probably will be upset and think that you may regret it, but you before doing anything rash, you need to think about why you broke up with him and ask yourself if you would really be happy if you were to be with him again. You might just miss the feeling you had with him. But you could also love him!! Just think before you act.
Good luck!!!
I hope you get things worked out. I can understand how confusing that would be...I don\'t personally have experience since I\'ve never had a boyfriend. I do know a few of my friends who have had crushes on numerous guys at a time. I think that\'s normal. I think love transcends that. Love is caring about someone so much that you will act in their best interests even if it hurts you. Or, at least, that\'s what I\'ve found with people in general. Only you can know if you loved him and people have different definitions of love.
I have gone through simmilar situations and it is hard but your right what ever happens happens and if it was ment to be then you will get back together with him i hope it works out for the best and if you need some one just to vent to i am a great listener so i wish you the best of luck. and hope to hear from you soon.