Thursday, February 28, 2008
Ugh! I don't know what I want anymore.I'm so confused.Well first I broke up with my boyfriend, second I'm beyond fed up with my EX friends, and three I have feelings for other guys, including my ex. Seriously when I see my Ex walking down the halls I can't stop staring at him. I think about how gorgeous he is, how much I miss him how much I would love for him to ask me back.I wish me and him could start over.I don't know. If I love Christian so much why would I dump him? Why would I have my eyes on other people and my ex? Thats not love is it? Can you honestly love someone and still do those things?I'm not really sure anymore. Of anything. I just want to release all these thoughts. I want to be fully content. I've taken up my own personal yoga and meditation. Taking at least 15 minutes of your day to unwind and meditate can make a huge difference. I haven't cried over me and Christian being apart. I haven't obsessed about calling him or wanting to call him. I'm okay with that too. Whatever happens happens. If we aren't meant to be then so be it.Rawr! Grr. Meooww.ha so yeah I guess I'm doing okay just confused and not fully content with everything.I'll survive.
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