So things are going alittle better today even though it's 1:30am and I'm still up. Just can't sleep anxiaty. But the friend that I wrote a letter to asking if she still wanted my friendship, she finally got back to me. She said she was devistated when she tried calling me after treatment and I didn't return her calls, but I was not ok when I got out and everything was so overwhelming also I was still doing treatment but out patient and only part time. But I guess she was trying to get back at me or something? Anyway she does still want to be my friend and that makes me feel so much better because I felt like I was dealing with a death. Ya just another thing I needed to deal with right! But I feel really weird becaue I'm so happy she still wants me in her life and there is also hurt and anger in me but it's like I'm numb to it. Does that make since to anyone? I'm also excited about a few things, one tomorrow I am having a Creative Memory workshop because I just became a consultant and I have alot of people coming. It just makes me feel good that my friends all want to come some are not even close friends. Also I finally started painting my bathroom blue and the I'm doing glossy stripes so it will be blue striped and glossy blue stripes.Painting my bathroom was a homework assignment that I got from my counsilor awhile ago because this bathroom was the one I used when I did ED behaivor and after treatment I closed off the bathroom and didn't use that one.