i feel like screamingcryingbanging my head on somethingjumping off a buildingstabbing myselfthrowing uptearing at my facejumping around wildlypunching something/someonebut i won'tbecause strangelyi'm not angryand tommorow i'll smileand laugh and feel emptyand wish i could move to hollandso homework doesn't counti can reach out to peopletalk to peoplenot just onlinethis fucking bullshitit's like i live on this computerwtf.why?why the fuck, am i so fucking shy?mess upall chancesat everythingif i just did my hwi could have a 4.0 gpaand go to the best collegesbut noi'm an idiotwasting timeprocrastinatingand the worst part is.I DON"T GIVE A FUCK!bitch life is a bitch, cuz if it was a slut it'd be easyseei seem to fool myselfby being cheerfulor somethingwtfi don't get itscrew it.