Finding the New year harder than Christmas, I hate this time of year anyway so at the moment feeling very down. Hubby doesnt talk much still can't!, think he has a lot of guilt from his relationship with Matt. He now realises how much Matt did for us and that at times he was hard on him. He's also become very bitter towards family , he has a large family and although some live very near they were'nt very close,everyone was there to start with but now only a couple of his sisters still ring and visit us regulary. I tried to say that everyone is different and that they are grieving too!