Howdo journal, i dont know how i feel today...pleased that i havent been feeling bad panic wise, but on the other hand my friend vhari came into work today and told us that the news wasnt good for her mum. the cancer has spread to her bones, what ones yet she doesnt exactly know and will have to wait until next tuesday now before she will get any more answers......Its total crap.....they said that there will be no surgery but that the sort of 'all round' cancer specialist that she will be seeing on tuesday will be able to verify on whether or not its worthwhile her getting chemo or radiotherapy. What can you say to that???? Vhari was in tears this morning but said that she would rather be in work than at home, so all i can do is try to keep her spirits up in the meantime....it sounds daft i know but what else can i do??? i could say that everything will be alright, but what the hell do i know.....you just wish that there was something more you could do to help because the wee soul isnt sleeping and obviously is worried sick.......life is indeed a bitch.I shall leave my journal entry here for now, i feel that it would be very inappropriate for me to now babble on about my insignificant problems in comparison to the above.......so i feel as if prayers will have to be said, eventhough i am not really religious.ttfn, i hope the next time we meet it will be in better circumstances xx