Hello journal.....today had been another weird one, to the point of expecting an attack but not getting one. It would be good to shake this feeling but i dont know how, its not as bad as having an attack but its still bloody un-nerving. Och if its no one thing then its another....aaarrrrggghhh.......On to about my sixth book this year so far, i just cant stop reading because my mind gets very restless if i do. I have never been the sort of person who could study, that sort of information i cant seem to retain. It would be so ideal though if i could because then i could at least better myself with all this reading, but i suppose it betters my vocabulary if not my  spelling...lol....Have had a small berevement this week....little rodger our black moor fish..we had him for about two years and had to put him in to a tank of his own recently because he was unwell....i hate having to deal with anything thats dead, i know that its weird but that goes for all things from my pet fish to people, it just scares the shit out of me.......so i had to get mick to deal with it..............I can only hope that next week brings more happiness than upset, fingers crossed....ttfn x