Howdy journal, well its the end of another weekend....sigh, and it will be back to work tomorrow. I have to say that recently, eventhough my moods have been slightly up and down, i havnt had a major panic attack since before crimbo......yippee.....i have had smaller ones but nothing really in comparison with what they could be like. I do think that writing things down all the time helps, even if it is just me babbaling on about this and that, i can get all the stupid stuff out of my head before it has a chance to gather together and make me either paranoid or panicky. I still have trouble though with my temper. I dont shout a lot or anything like that but inside i feel sometimes as if i could explode with rage, and then i rant alot which makes the anger worse. Hense getting the worst off my back in one of my last journal entries. I could type or rant for hours on end when i get the bit between my teeth and nothing will really calm me down imediatley, but i have found that at least this is the best way to cope with it.  My mum says that i take after my uncle with my temper, so it might be the auburn hair in our family lol, either that or it is the agressive side of my scottish nature coming out of me..." dinnae look at me the wrang way pal or ill kick yer fooking heid in"  A quiet evening out,,lol, A head but in scotland is known as a glasgow kiss, touching isnt it.....so if anyone is ever over here and someone asks if you want a glasgow kiss, then run like fuck....thats if you get someone respectful enough to ask first..lol