Hello journal !! I was talking in work today about how violent  the community that i live in was in comparrison to other peoples in my work, lets just say there was a huge difference. Scotland in its self has been named as one of the most dangerous places for violence in europe, nay the world...this is only going by comparrisons in the population, there are only about 5 million of us here. It was very strange to think of that as i find it a safe place to be, the world is indeed a very strange place.............. I will hopefully be starting a yoga class tomorrow night.........i can see it know, all the skinny bitches of the day and little old me will waddle in, no doubt the only novice there. Thats what my paranoid mind would have me believe anyway, so i hope that it is nothing like that because i think i will be going alone...eek!! I am becoming a bit better at doing things on my own as i become older, i would never have dreamed of walking into a class alone before, my panic wouldnt have allowed it, so i will just have to see where it goes....fingers and toes crossed, and if the class goes well i might be able to cross more things lol, either that or an ambulance may have to be called....No matter what i shall write about my experience on here, whether it be embarrasing or not, at least i should get a laugh out of it...now what to wear, is spandex too much??? I was thinking luminous yellow with some pink headbands..lol I think i might stick to the trackky bottoms and a tee shirt............Still having trouble sleeping, from going to bed it can take anywhere from two to three hours to get to sleep. I dont know what the problem is, im certainly tired enough but my mind just doesnt seem to want to switch off, and then there are the dreams. This is the only way that i know that i have been sleepin sometimes, because of the weird bloody dreams i keep having. I always seem to be stranded somewhere and noone cares enough to come and get me or help me home....abandonment issues????....i just wish that my head would sort itself out, surely there cant be that much suppressed info in it, i mean its not like im a super brain or anything..........sigh...ya never know tonight could be the night that i fall asleep into an enchanting dream...yeah right...........speak soon journal