Dear journal i thought that i would put the little sealed sign on my face because i am still totally bunged up with the cold, to the point of being off work yesterday and having a blocked left ear to boot. If all of that wasnt enough then i am getting no sympathy at all from mick, all he has done has been to get stroppy about not getting his tee shirts ironed for work. Last night he came in from work and made his dinner, when he came through to eat it his remark was 'oh did you want me to make you something?'..........i mean for gods sake, a little coutesay is all im asking for, so i replied no and i went and made my own scrammbled egg...flammin cheek. I dont know what to do or think about this because he is like this most of the time, but there can be instances where he is so sweet as well, just not really if you ask him to do anything for you. If someone else asked him to do something for them then he would do it without thinking, just not for me........It saddens me because i really love him and i know that he loves me but he is old fashioned and believes that what he wants to do is far more important than anything that i would want. Where to go from here i dont know but we will see! ..............................Ah what a too do !! I dont really have much more to add today, i mean the weird dreams are continuing, the disturbed sleep, the up and down moods.....nothing is stable at the moment and it is scarey.....it would be nice to be able to meet up with someone who could become a friend who had similar problems as me, face to face can be challenging but at least there is the opportunity for a real hug without having to ask for one.....maybe one day Dear journal i thought that i would put the little sealed sign on my face because i am still totally bunged up with the cold, to the point of being off work yesterday and having a blocked left ear to boot. If all of that wasnt enough then i am getting no sympathy at all from mick, all he has done has been to get stroppy about not getting his tee shirts ironed for work. Last night he came in from work and made his dinner, when he came through to eat it his remark was 'oh did you want me to make you something?'..........i mean for gods sake, a little coutesay is all im asking for, so i replied no and i went and made my own scrammbled egg...flammin cheek. I dont know what to do or think about this because he is like this most of the time, but there can be instances where he is so sweet as well, just not really if you ask him to do anything for you. If someone else asked him to do something for them then he would do it without thinking, just not for me........It saddens me because i really love him and i know that he loves me but he is old fashioned and believes that what he wants to do is far more important than anything that i would want. Where to go from here i dont know but we will see! ..............................Ah what a too do !! I dont really have much more to add today, i mean the weird dreams are continuing, the disturbed sleep, the up and down moods.....nothing is stable at the moment and it is scarey.....it would be nice to be able to meet up with someone who could become a friend who had similar problems as me, face to face can be challenging but at least there is the opportunity for a real hug without having to ask for one.....maybe one day
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I HEAR WHAT YOUR SAYING.. BUT I THINK RELATIONSHIPS AFTER AWHILE GET TAKEN FOR GRANTED. ITS NOT ALWAYS A BAD THING, ITS JUST THAT WE ARE SO COMFY WITH EACH OTHER THAT WE EXPECT THE OTHER PERSON TO FEEL THE SAME AS WE DO, WITH NO QUESTIONS ASKED. I HAVE BEEN WITH MY SPOUSE FOR 30 YEARS, AND WE STILL HAVE TO TALK SHIT OVER WITH EACH OTHER. WE ARE ONLY \"HUMAN\" AND WE STILL LEARN FROM EACH OTHER EVERYDAY. MY HUBBY ALWAYS SAYS \"PACEINTS IS A VIRTUE\" SORRY FOR THE SP.. ANYWHOO, MEN ARE ON A DIFFERENT PAGE THEN US WOMEN. ITS FOR US TO FIGURE OUT WHICH PAGE LOL!!! GET BETTER SWEETIE, AND DON\'T SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF. JUST LIVE!!!!!!