feeling a little better today, been to see the dr and she has put me back on the propranolol.  I had no success with this the first time round but now i am trying it in combination with my escitalopram so i hope things will take an upturn, although i am not getting my hopes up yet.  I have a couple of other web sites to explore now that are based a little closer to home so i am hoping maybe to be able to hook up with a support group in my local community so that i can speak to people face to face.  We will see if i have the courage to do so.Couldnt sleep last night so i ended up sleepin in for work, typical.  Hope to get up in time tomorrow, or finally i may start getting into trouble over it.  Work was really depressing this morning, i felt as if i could just walk out there and then, but i think it had more to do with the lack of sleep and residual paranoia of my attacks.  Ijust wish i could have one easy week at work without any dramas or chaos, but for that i may have to work in a library!!At least i dont feel as if i could burst into tears at any moment or severly lose my temper over the silliest little thing. As it would probably be at the wrong people, wrong time and for the wrong reasons which would only serve to make me feel worse.Hopefully more good news tomorrow!!!