Dear journal,  well today has been a bit strange. At work i had an uneasy feeling all day and couldnt quite shake it off, dont know why, just as i thought things were on the up! typical!!                                                                                                                                                    It may have had something to do with a bloody stupid woman shouting over the phone at me about her mother in laws tablets.  I cant help the fact that the delivery driver pat is off sick can i !!! and after all chris the pharmacist did try and deliver the tray only to get no reply.  She has got a bloody cheek and if i were allowed to i would tell her that.  Anyhoo i must try to stop getting so annoyed by what others do, but it is easier said than done.  The result of that was that i was in a bit of a grumpy mood for the rest of the day.                                                                                                                                                                                     Why does this always happen after i have been to the physiotherapist and feel quite calm and good about things??  We had sat and had a bit of a laugh while i was getting my neck tweeked and it had been a joy, all until i got to work!!  Bloody public!!!!!!!!!                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              I shouldnt lay all the blame on the customers because i have been more tetchy than usual due to the fact that i am giving up smoking, going cold turkey i might add, bah humbug!.  It was my only vice and i enjoyed it, and i miss it too.  i know its for the best that i stop because i am 31 now and i dont want to be doing it all my life, but sneef it was good while it lasted!!  I also want to have a clear mind now and have nothing holding me back from hopefully controlling my P.A.s, its been long and tiring to get here and i dont want to go back.