frustrated

I have been so frustrated lately that I just don't know what to do any more. I can't remember even little things and the pain is getting so bad. I can't sleep and I can't stand for more than 5 minutes without being in pain. I can't find a sit down job and I know the girls at work are getting frustrated with me. I will sometimes be in the middle of a haircut and forget what to do or I hurry through the cut because I am in pain so I can take a break. I get upset, so I am sure the girls I work with do too. Even if I were to get a sit down job would I loose focus and not be able to do my job. So glad I can come on here and just vent.