Ok here goes today. The day has gone really smoothly, except I have been sad all day. I am staying positive in front of my husband, but I feel like he is starting to give up. He does not think he is giving up, but little things he is doing is making me wonder. He has not had an appitite today, and he decided that he wanted to go back to bed already. It is 5:00 in the evening. He was talking to his friend today and told him that he wanted to sell his motorcycle. I know that he will never ride it again, but he didn't. I thought that his goal was to get back on it, and by keeping it, it would keep him motivated. I need to keep him drinking fluids, but he is not drinking enough. If I see his glass is getting empy, I will go and get him another one. I think his problem is that when we did not have the hospital be and he was sleeping in the chair. His feet and legs started swelling up with water. He thinks that by drinking he is just adding more and I keep telling him that he needs to drink more to flush it out, but he is not listening.I have been trying to think of creative ways to get him more motivated, I know that he does not have much strength, but if he does not use what he has, he will loose that too. My sister was supposed to come over and go to the grocery with me, but she ended up having another gallbladder attack. I hope soon that they get her surgery done, so that she feels better. She has been going through so much in her life that I just don't know how she gets out of bed in the morning. I draw strength from her just knowing that no matter what she is going through, she keeps going. She has called me to help cheer her up, but I know that she has more strength than I could ever have. My Brother came over yesterday for a haircut and was telling me about his daughter moving out. They were devestated. She just turned 18 in December. She decided that she did not like the rules at home and that she was 18 and could do what she wanted, so she moved in with her boyfriend. On the brighter side of things, any day now I will be a great aunt for the first time. My neice called my mom yesterday and said that she was going to the dr. and that she had started to dialate. She is having a boy, going to name him Colten.  Thought for the day........ Inner strength is much stronger than outer strength.