it wasnt that bad yesterday i slept all day then went to daddys for salmon and today i am taking care of myself. showered, straightened my hair painted my toes looking forward to seeing my best friend tommorow but not looking forward to the bus ride home. skeptical of the bus not arriving on time and making me late. i work at 5 pm on fri so nothing could really go wrong but my bp mind thinks that it will. im also feeling guilty about not going to the sheduled meeting. i mean i should be there, right? i know i know its ok i got permission and am not just skipping out. i wish this journal had a little more to it then daily entrys i so want a creative side. ive tried poems but sudden thoughts and innovative ideas would be really cool. where do i begin? i have a life time of blah ness. or maybe what i think is blah ness im just in decisive today. hell at least ive taken care of my out ward appearance. the rest is all desired and quickly will come.
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(((hugs))) Dont beat your self up any more about the meeting... chances are most of it wouldnt apply to you any way... you mention taking care of your out side, well taking the time to see your friend is taking care of your insides. If you went to a J.O.B. meeting that wont change your life and neglected to take care of you mental state then you would end up not having a job and the meeting would have been for nothing anyways....
U sound like me when you wrote that part about feeling \"guilty even though you have permission.\" Try not to worry so much...it \"does\" just sound like your illness talking. Everything will be okay, I\'m sure of it. (^.~) Love U! kaykay
Well, Miss Priss, if you have showered....bravo! And if you have shtraightened your hair...clap clap! But if you have painted them toes AS WELL, then you are ONE HOT MAMA!!! It\'s wonderful that you took care of yourself physically like that. It does make you feel better. Hope u have fun with your best friend.
Love you lots,
April