yeah!  another dayyyyyyyok so went to the pdoc and a few things happened i found out that he is only covered by my step moms ins.  why this is such an issue with her i will never know but it is!  oh well!  what can she do?  shes gone for two weeks!  in the mean time i will have gotten a case manager who will hopefully opt for me to stay with my present doc and not try to push me into seing a state doc.  phewe!  so my doc put me on a new drug.  i dont have the name in front of me cuz they have to order it from the pharmacy.  its a nuereleptic that will fight the ever loving psychosis and put me to sleep.  everytime i see this man i wave goodbye thinking i wont be able to see him again.  hence step mom again.  i just want the hosp visits to stop i cant believe what i did three weeks ago and you thought you were crazy.im so thank ful to still have my fun part time job.  i will get my loans defered for a year.  yeah!  so everything is still okay!   did i say yeah?