feeling lonely.  this past weekend made me want to cry.  it was hard on me yes for the past two weeks and get no positive "at a girls" was another slap in the face.  In fact my dad and step mom are very upset with me.  before they left for cali i was angry with them and did somethings i really regret doing.  I hung up on them twice and screamed at my stepmom so much then i ever have before.  I know i hurt her.  i wanted to talk today but she wouldnt talk to me.  They want me to clean up my house better after all they are my land lords.  I tell them i clean once it gets out of hand.(every three days ) but they seem always to see it on the second day.  What else there upset that i only watered there plants once when they were gone to cali.  thats the truth but how do i tell them that?  another thing that has been bothering is the amount of time i spend on this damn computer.  you see i rarely venture out of the house to do anything real.  i tell myself "i dont have anything to do, or what do i do?  but, the real thing is theres plenty to do but i'm very lazy.  It just like cleaning the house i only do it when i want to do it.  Ive been in az over a year now and i just havent taken the time to make new friends.  i might as well still live in cali since alls i do is talk to my two friends constantly.  they know absolutly everything about me and vise versa.  so lately my mood beens glum.  i hope it picks up cuz i dont want to be down in the dumps much longer.