Ok so today was rush rush keep busy but no stress.  Yesterday I was high and wanted to get a full time job doing temp work and making $10 per hour.  this meands an 7-3 job daily. Wow ! that wouldve been awesome but since I already have a PT job I would be taking on two jobs and that is wayyyy over the top stress.  So, today when i went to my PT job I gave her a speal of I want to work nights so that I could pursue an additional job while she wanted to start traininng me for the hostess position.  I realised then and there that this was the only job i wanted right now.  I had to think hard and realised I was high when I had thought about taking that second job but now I'm on an even keel.  My temp lady(10 hour) was a little peturbed when I didnt call her but she'll get over it.  While Im glad I did what I did.  feels good .  I didnt want the stress.  cause we all know what happens to Bp's when there under a great deal of stress.  and I just didnt needed that.  Im really glad I wised up in the nick of time.