Today I had an ephinony.  I've always wondered why hearing someone call my name would cause me to have a panic attack.  Also everytime I went in I changed my name.  I didnt identify with myself!  NOW I KNOW WHY. you see, iI found my baby book and in there my mother calls me something when I'm just born and then changes it at 15 months.  I was 1 year and a half.  AMAZING!  i'm just relishing in this thought.