well doing okay I got a job at craker barrel in the gift store.  for those of you that dont know it is an old fashion great home cooking like grandmas food.  I got the job in two days.  Keeping it is my problem.  I seem to get stressed easily get manic and wind up in the hosp.  Its scary.  happens often.  Next week I must get to a clinic and get my meds then go to my insurance co and get a new pdoc.  I dont want yet another one.  I need one though that will keep me on the same meds that im on now. pray for me that i will be okay.  Im worried