Okay time for seep. got my house all cleaned up. yay! i accomplished it. went out with family and friends for dinner. As long as i stay very busy i dont get depressed. but staying round the house is when sadness creeps in. and my mind starts to wander in every hich direction. Im gonna be optimistic dammit. hings are great in my life. and they will get even better. ut when will i start believing this?????