It has been awhile since I have written anything.  Over Thanksgiving I had to stay with a different friend and wann't able to log into the web site.  Somehow his computer was blocking it.  So my beloved Riley is gone.  And life still goes on and the earth still turns. I am basteph1977's Apple.  We have had a very ruff week.  Kim helped Riley to walk thru the door and instead of Riley integreating with the main personality she integrated with Kim.  Now Kim has all of her feelins and her fears.  So now I have to go through all of Riley's pain again.  I will do anything for them so I will do that also.  It gets to be emotionally draining for me sometimes.    I love them so much and at times I feel so helpless.  So out of control...I don't know what to do to help them.  I of course know that the answer is to help them to integrate and that is what I have to do.  Here is a poem that I wrote for them:ECHOES OF YOU Echoes of you that’s what I hearEchoes of you fill each tear.Echoes of you that’s all I gotEchoes of you the tears are hot.Echoes of you cause you had to goEchoes of you the tears fall slow.Echoes of you but just a traceEchoes of you as they burn my face.Echoes of you and the love we hadEchoes of you they make me sad.Echoes of you that I love so muchEchoes of you I miss your touch.Echoes of you as you fade awayEchoes of you I wish you could stay.Echoes of you as I let you goEchoes of you that’s all I know.Echoes of you cause your not hereEchoes of you fill each tear.