There is never an end to the excitement around here.  Angel came out and spent time with me last night.  She came to say goodbye. She was finally ready to go.  She has been integreated.  Angel was the first alter that I met and was the main false front personality.  She had trouble with believing that she was an alter.  I guess I did to.  Didn't know it for about 5 months.  We loved each other as best we could.  She said that if at all possible she would remember me where ever she went.  Not knowing what ly on the other side was one thing that held her here.  I will miss her so very much.  She was a wonderful mother and a very good friend.  She is the one that gave me my name Apple.  Good bye my Angel.  I hope to met you again in some other life.  There are tears in my eyes so I had better go.  Just when I think that things are settled in my mind the alters have to go and change stuff.  I was pretty much resigned to integrating Riley.  I found out this morning that Riley came out while we were at our friends house.  She came out to play with our friend's daughters.  They were playing some rhyming game where you clap each others hands while saying a rhyme.  Just as I think that she is ready to go and has given up all hope she does something like this which gives us a glimmer of hope that she can be saved.  So now I am back to not knowing what to do.