It only gets worse.  I don't know what to do with Riley.  Tonight I am supose to work with her.  I haven't decided what I am gonna do.  I try to do the best I can.  I don't want to lose her but she has no feeling.  Nothing.  Empty.  I don't want to have to integrate her but it is getting down to that.  I think that tonight is going to be my last attempt to pull her out if I can't make any progress with her she will have to be intrgrated becuase she is hurting everyone else.           We went to a friends house tonight and had a very good time.  It was the first time that I had been in a social setting with them with someone who knows that they are a multiple.    The person that we went to see is the other person that knows that they exist.  It was a very nice evening and we all had a very good time.  I had wanted to take Riley there with me, but we were never able to do it.    I wanted to be about to take her somewhere where she could be herself and I could call her by her name in front of others.  It is important for her to be her own person.  No one knows what the future holds.