"I don't need sex, life fucks me whenever it can." This quote is my favorite ever! It shows I am not the only one. You know, I don't understand how I can hurt so much inside and yet my body just keeps on going, it doesn't make any sense, with this much pain my body should just give up and die already. I wish I had the strength to throw myself into oblivion, but the effects it would have on others might be negative, and I can't put others into pain, knowing full well how it feels. Well, nothing new to report, just the same old pain, oh except that Ihave stopped cutting myself, I am really happy about that. Well, as happy as I ever have the ability to get.
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great job for not cutting
You don\'t know it but you have been an inspiration to me. I have read your journal entries for so long. I understand that you finally had to come out to you parents (p.s. your father IS A DICK for breaking into your journal, and then your computer) and it has taken some doing to have a \"normal\" life. I believe that you should tell your brother that your gay. I am sure he\'d hate to hear it first defending you to a friend only to find out that you have been lying to him. Your sexuality is your sexuality not your parents. I know because we\'ve (My entire family) have had this argument myself already. I wish you the best. I think you are an amazingly courageous dude. I came out to my parents last year. It nearly killed my Mom. But all is well now and she became the president of our local PFLAG after Lawrence King was killed. I know I\'m only 14 but I am somewhat clever and I too want to be a lawyer to fight all the bastards in the Foster Care system. It need remodling in every state, including Hawaii. I\'m taking all AP courses to get ready. Also I have 6 night credits at HCCC (our community college here). I\'m like the littlest kid in class.