I have decided I am somewhat of a demented person. One of my best freinds does not know I am gay, He moved and I have  not seen him in forever. I was in the town he moved to last night and I saw him, I ran to say hi  and it was not him, my heart shatered, I thought I was going to fall into oblivion. Then today i got a message from this guy I really like. It was a simple hello but it made me feel like I can push through the fog. It still hurts but I am moving, and feeling things besides pain again. Pass along a hi, how are ya? yall, you may just save someones life.