I feel so awful, I am way depressed right now, about many things. The highest on my list being the guy that I have a crush on just had a heart attack and the doctors found out that the lining of his heart is inffected. I wish to be in his stead, he has so much going for him right now, he is the junior class president and plays sports and is kind to everone and everyone respects and loves him, if I could take his place I would. All I have is debate and I would die rather than him my prayers go out to him and I hope all of you would be kind enough to pray for him.I want to die anyways, he could get so much out of life. I hope and pray with all my heart that he does not die, and as for me, I want to be in his stead so that I have the chance to die and he can have a full, rich life.