All is well today.  I am going to face the day with the expectation that wonderful things will happen.  Nothing wrong with that.  I wont be disappointed when it doesnt happen, I just know it will happen tomorrow, or the next day.  I feel nothing for the stbx any more.  In fact, once I talked to him with fear, still a little there, but I am getting over that fear.  I actually have had conversations with him where he is mad, and I am laughing!!  He doesnt seem to get to me any more.  This is a great accomplishment.  I know lots more about this man than  I did when I was married to him!  I believe I understand him more now.  His moods, his attitude, and his self rightousness.  He thinks if he does nothing, nothing will happen.  The bills he hasnt paid in years, the house being in foreclosure now.  He devised a plan to settle with the mortgage company and try to refinance with someone else.  I just wonder who would give him another chance with his track record?  It will be done, this is his life.  He just skirts through with no remorse or fear of what will happen.  I know he is so hard headed.  His attitude is one of disgust, reallyl.  He thinks he is so above everone else.   He is smug and just irritating!  I know lots of people who dont really like him.  And he doesnt care.  Some times thats a good thing, but he will be the first to tell you he doesnt like people.   He has no friends.  He will tell you that, too!  He doesnt want them really.   Oh well, I know I am better off without him.  I just wish the kids werent in the middle of this.  I think they will be ok one day.  I mean, they are doing fine now, but they are still young.  They will know the truth one day.  I love them so much!