M and I are back and stronger than ever.  This has been the turning point for me.  I know now how and where I want to spend the rest of my days.  I know now where my stbx stands in my life.  I know now, I want to be happy with M and my kids.  Stbx is far away from me and my heart now.  I know in my heart where it belongs.  And that is with M.  Christmas was a drag!  My sister told me flat out that I needed to move out, get a better job and put mom in a nursing home!  WTF is up with that?!?!?!  I told mom and she said she doesnt want me to move out.  I came to the conclusion that my sister just wants to clear he conscience, because she doesnt take care of mom.  What else could it be?  Mom doesnt want to be alone!!!Oh well...ttfn