Hello all...the semester is finished! I got my 4.0!!!Getting ready for my Christmas holidays...Got very weepy today because I don't have much cash for Christmas (John hasn't paid any child support since August) At work somebody left a bunch of sample-size body creams and hand lotions and such for the nurses.  I started crying as I took them because I plan to put them in my stocking so the kids won't think I was "naughty" and Santa forgot about me.  Normally I would buy some little trinkets for myself like an ornament or candy or something. But money is so tight that I can't even afford to do that.  I pray that I have enough for food for the rest of the month, I just paid my car payment and I have about $100 left for the rest of the month.  The important thing is that the kids will have a nice Christmas, but I have to say I get angry and sad that it has to be this way.  John left so much damage in his wake.  On Sunday he left Julie's dance recital early .  She asked "Where is Daddy going, where is my Daddy, Why is my Daddy the only Daddy that left?" It just breaks my heart.  And she was beautiful too.  The best one in her group. (A mother's pride...) 2008 will be better.  I am sure of it. I will graduate,  the divorce will be final and the courts will force him to pay.  After I file my tax returns, I can pay off some of the debt I incured because of him too.  Hopefully at least $4000 of it. Things, little by little, will get more managable.  Anyway, I will keep on keeping on... That 's what survivors do!